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After only a week passed since I uploaded those videos on Youtube, I heard a knock on my apartment

door. I opened it to see about seven police officers asking for me. As soon as I saw those cops, the

biggest fear I had ever felt in my life overcame me. I had the striking and devastating fear that someone

had somehow discovered what I was planning to do, and reported me for it. If that was the case, the

police would have searched my room, found all of my guns and weapons, along with my writings about

what I plan to do with them. I would have been thrown in jail, denied of the chance to exact revenge on

my enemies. I can’t imagine a hell darker than that. Thankfully, that wasn’t the case, but it was so close. 

     Apparently, someone saw my videos and became instantly suspicious of me. They called some sort of

health agency, who called the police to check up on me. The police told me it was my mother who called

them, but my mother told me it was the health agency. My mother had watched the videos and was

very disturbed by them. I don’t suppose I’ll ever know the full truth of who called the police on me. The

police interrogated me outside for a few minutes, asking me if I had suicidal thoughts. I tactfully told

them that it was all a misunderstanding, and they finally left. If they had demanded to search my room…

That would have ended everything. For a few horrible seconds I thought it was all over. When they left,

the biggest wave of relief swept over me. It was so scary.

     It was all because of the videos. I must have expressed too much anger in them. I immediately took

most of them off of Youtube, and planned to reupload them a few days before the Day of Retribution.

This incident made me realize that I needed to be extra careful. I can’t let anyone become suspicious of

me. All it takes is for one person to call the police and tell them that they think I’m going to perpetrate a

shooting, and the police will be coming to my door again, demanding to search my room. For the next

few days, I felt extremely fearful that they could show up anytime. I kept one of my handguns with a few

loaded magazines near me just in case such a thing did happen. If they did show up, I would have to try

to quickly shoot them all and escape out the back window. I would then have to perform a hasty

mockery of my plans, with the police on my tail. That will ruin everything. Thankfully, all suspicion of me

was dropped after I took down the videos from Youtube, and the police never came back.


     During the last few weeks of my life, I continued my daily adventures around town, trying to

experience as much of the world as I could before I die. Upon doing this, I realized that the only world I

can possibly ever experience is a twisted world of constant suffering. No matter where I go, I have to

face all of the same injustices. Young couples are everywhere! They constantly remind me of what I have

lacked all my life. I cannot go out of my room without seeing a young couple that would make me feel

envious and enraged. How dare those girls give their love and sex to those other men and not me, I

constantly think when I see young couples. There is nowhere in the world I can go anymore. There is no

more life to live. The Day of Retribution is all I have. It is the final solution to all of the injustices of this

twisted world. By doing this, I will set right all of the wrongs I’ve had to face in my sorry excuse of a life. 

     Every single time I’ve seen a guy walk around with his beautiful girlfriend, I’ve always wanted to kill

them both in the most painful way possible. They deserve it. They must be punished. The males deserve

to be punished for living a better and more pleasurable life than me, and the females deserve to be

punished for giving that pleasurable life to those males instead of me. On the Day of Retribution, I will

finally be able to punish them ALL. 

     When I think about the amazing and blissful life I could have lived if only females were sexually

attracted to me, my entire being burns with hatred. They denied me a happy life, and in return I will

take away all of their lives. It is only fair. 


     I am not part of the human race. Humanity has rejected me. The females of the human species have

never wanted to mate with me, so how could I possibly consider myself part of humanity? Humanity has

never accepted me among them, and now I know why. I am more than human. I am superior to them

all. I am Elliot Rodger… Magnificent, glorious, supreme, eminent… Divine! I am the closest thing there is

to a living god. Humanity is a disgusting, depraved, and evil species. It is my purpose to punish them all. I

will purify the world of everything that is wrong with it. On the Day of Retribution, I will truly be a

powerful god, punishing everyone I deem to be impure and depraved.



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